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Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Time to get rid of this monster


Let's get serious...

All through High school until I was skinny. I have always been between a size 2-4. 120 pounds.
Long story short... I am now currently a size 12 and weigh over 160 pounds. That makes me sick to say and i'm embarrassed to say it. But, I feel like I need to say it. Now everyone knows. My secret is out (even though I am sure it's obvious to everyone)!Within 3 years I went from a size 4 to a size 12. I need to make this STOP!

I feel weight has never been a problem for me. But, It is now.
My life is spiraling downwards... I honestly do not fit into any of my clothes. I currently have a couple pairs of pants and shirts. I have also found myself in depression. I grew up with family members who have depression. I hate depression and tell myself everyday I don't have it. But, deep down I know I do. I try to hide it as well as I can... I have also found myself as a depressed eater (which does not help). I get depressed because I eat so much... so I eat. Don't worry... it doesn't make sense to me either. I also have been pulling myself away from my friends and family. I've missed important events in my their lives because I simply do not want to be seen. I miss everyone.

What is funny is in high school I was anorexic. I never ate. EVER. Just a little bit here and there...All within one week I had one of my good friends (who I don't even think knows this) tell me... "Denise, I can see your ribs. You are so freakin skinny!" That grossed me out a bit. I had seen women who were so skinny that they looked nasty. I thought to myself "do I look that skinny?" Two days later in school.... you know when the parents would come to your classes and there was a new topic every month like drinking... drugs.. well that day it happened to be on anorexia and bulimia. I found out that if you are a girl and stop eating, your period will stop and you will not be able to have kids.... For those who know me very well... I LOVE kids! Kids are my life! The one thing I look forward to in life is to have a child! That week I started eating and exercising... With help from my friend Sarah I was back on track...

So now i've been through it all ... i've been disgustingly skinny and now overweight. I want to be healthy and fit! Hopefully be able to fit back into all my old clothes! I've recently started tracking my food... The time I eat and how much. I want to focus on 3 healthy meals a day and less snacking! And of course drink lots and LOTS of water! I'm already on my 5th glass for the day and feeling great! I also have started new workouts that are kicking my butt! I can hardly lift my arms! But, things are looking up and I feel good!

Please know that I am so sorry if I have missed anything important in your life. I've been gone for a while but, I am coming back! I know it's a long process and I have to be patient. But, just know the old me is coming back!


Me now... I look bad but my friends Anisa and Ali look fantastic!




Here is a picture of me when I was coming out of annorexia...


Now lets have me meet somewhere in the middle :)

Friday, July 22, 2011

Vote 4 Us!


When Jord and I had a first night.. it was a mess! Stuff happened that should not have! Long story short.. I ended up going right to sleep... on my side of the bed... when we finally found a bed to sleep in!
SO I found a contest on facebook on thebrideandgroom.com's page! We had to enter a picture of us and they would pick their favorite top 10. Once they had their top 10, whoever gets the most "likes" wins a first night paid for!! I was so excited to find this because... for our first night re-do for our 1 year we want to do something nice to make up for the real first night. But, money is tight and right now it looks like it is going to happen in our apartment.. NOT what we have in mind! SO I messaged thebrideandgroom.com telling them our story and asking them if we could enter our picture... they said YES! AND we made the TOP 10!!

Please log onto your facebook page and vote for us!!
You need to "like" All points travel - utah AND thebrideandgroom.com FIRST.
THEN vote for our picture on BOTH pages! Vote on both and we get double the votes!!

Here are the fbook links:

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150237004801906.319749.248120641905&type=1

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150237004801906.319749.248120641905&type=1

Thanks everyone!!

Monday, July 11, 2011

Freaky Fridays



Almost time for Freaky Friday rehearsals to start up again! I'm so excited and can't wait. My two most favorite things in one! HALLOWEEN AND PERFORMING! I've been trying all I can to get Jordan to do it with me... He just keeps telling me "I'm thinking about it." We need more men in the group and I think he would be perfect! We'll see what happens though! If you know any guys who would be interested.. let me know! If you are ever interested in coming to a show.. It's every Friday evening in October at Wheeler Farm. It's a fantastic family show for a fantastic price1 I hope to see you all there!

Here is video I can't ever get enough of from SO YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE